what's wrong with me?

This is going to be a bit of a "I'm fed up so I feel like typing it out" rant.

the topic?

well, I may or may not hvae mentioned that Milly got Thermo's e-mail address while I was going out with him, anyway Thermo gave her addy to Adam and Adam gave it to other guy's that I'm friends with. Well, they love her and she likes them, it's great right? both groups of my friends are getting along.. but thats the thing, now each time Adam or pretty much any other guy talks to me it's only to ask me where she's been cause she's not answering his calls/texts etc.. or to tell me how great she is.. I'm glad they like her and everything but it's like they've replaced me, I've talked to Milly and told her I may be a tiny bit jealous and everything, but she honestly does not care.. she told me she'd make an effort but then in a conversation between them that I was joined into all she was doing was flirting.. I know I sound so so selfish right now but I'm just.. well jealous I guess..

anyway, that was my rant..


oh yeah and some of you might be happy to know that Sebby and I are going out BUUUT.. he doesn't want anyone to know.. I honestly don't know what to think of it, but one or two of my friends know and one or two of his do but yeah.. I don't know,,


I'm sorry for my selfishness of a blog..


love you all .xx

Kimmiixox

Black Roses Red...

Hey!

not much to say,

went to the movies with Nathan to see Drill bit Taylor, has anyone else seen it?

I thought it was pretty funny in parts, so yeah, I had fun =) I guess this means Nathans not as mad with me.. Thermo's still ignoring me.

umm.. oh yeah, Christine: when I read your comment I laughed for like 5 minutes and I received a weird look or two from my brother. I'm uhh.. flattered you'd go to so much trouble hahahaa You really think we should..?


Well thats about it.. I might post some lyrics..

This could be highly considered a very depressing song but I kinda like it so yeahh..
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Black roses Red - Alana Grace-

Can I ask you a question please
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let the morning light come in and let the darkness fade away
Chorus:
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?

Drowning in my loneliness
How long must I hold my breath
So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
One last year has come and gone
It's time to let your love rain down on me

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz
I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love (x6)

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame in on love
I'm feeling like I'll blame it on love (until fades)
__________________________________________

so yeahh, theres some lyrics.

I really don't have much to say..

I've been drawing alot trying to fill up my art portfolio for school so if you guys have any ideas for what I should draw then I'm open for ideas, take note it's a Christian school so it can't be anything, "inappropriate" hahahaa so yeah, I'm running out of ideas

I'm also trying to avoid doing the maths and English they gave us for homework, (yes, they gave us homework on the holidays, what cruel teachers I have haha) oh yeah and I also have to cook a 2 course dinner for my family and get it reviewed and take photos for presentation for home economics..

Umm.. only a week to go until I'm going to Melbourne for a whole week to stay with Milly, the one who's flirting with Adam and stuff.. and who wanted to set me up with some Italian guy.. and shes insisted that we are going to meet two, "perfectly gorgeous guys" and we will, "fall in love" and things of the such,, so yeahh... I might not be able to post during that week cause I never tell anyone about this blog so I have to avoid writing in it near people.. so doing it on her computer may be risky, a small update may be possible, we'll see..

so thats about it..

please comment, I love your feedback, even if it's short and sweet =)


love you all,
Kimmiixox

birthdays, parties, bets and love...

hey!

well, I thought about telling you guys about the "issue" but one moment it seems so overwhelming and then it just seems useless so it can't be extremly significant, it's not bothering me much anymore so yeah.

anyway's, whats happened recently..

Well Wednesday was my birthday! (I turned 14) and after hearing a rumour that Sebby and I like eachother Sebby admitted to liking me and said I was, and I quote, "the most beautiful, funny and best friend" hes ever had.

Then on Thursday I had a party for my birthday and I invited:


*Lexia
*Rachel
*Sebby
*Nathan
*Jacqui
*Cassie
*Gracie
and
*Emily

So after school Jacqui and Emily came home on the bus with me because otherwise they couldn't come so we caught the bus to my house and on the bus Emily made a bet that me and Sebby would be together by the end of the night. So we just mucked around at my house and then Sebby called and said his mum was going away so he had to come early. So he came earlier and we just mucked around, then eventually everyone came and we were watching movies and eating junk food and being generally spastic and hyper teenages =)

Then afterwards Jacqui slept over because her house is like an hour and a half away from mine and she couldn;t get driven home. We stayed up til 3 am watching "Waterboy", it was pretty funny and Jacqui could not stop repeating the lines, it was fun =)

And for those wondering, no, me and Sebby did not get together.

also here are some numbers collected from the party:

amount of times Cassie insisted Sebby and I are made for eachother: 7
number of hugs I got: millions
number of hugs from Sebby: about half of that
number of dollars I recieved: 55


so yeah, this post isn't really that exciting..


catchyaas,

Kimmiixox

you gotta live through the storm before you see the sun...

hey,

well I've been in a non-talkative kind of mood lately, kinda down about some stuff..

my first reaction was to write about it, but this feels really personal. I know I can tell you guys anything, since you have never met the people and this is generally the place we go to tell stuff we can;t tell anyone else, right?
but I'm feeling hesitant to tell you about this articular thing, so what do you guys think? should I vent bout it?

I suppose I'll fill the rest of the post with other stuff..


ohh yeah! I went to a girl, Brittney's birthday party and it was seriously fun! it was kind of a pool party/movie thing.. we were dancing to music and mucking around and then we went out to the pool and a girl Elley was daring everyone to strip down to their undies and go for a swim, I cheated =P cause I already had my bathers underneath but it was really fun and the water was FREEZING cause we were swimming at like 6;00pm so yeah..

then later on most people went home but some of us (Lexiaa&Cassie& a girl called Marli& I) stayed for a sleepover and we stayed up til' 2am watching The Ring 2 under a doona on the couch and Marli hates scary movies so every five or so seconds she'd hide her head under the doona and scream and go, "is it over yet!?" and we'd all just crack up laughing so yeahh,

Then we stayed up until 3 just talking about stuff and Lexiaa was asking me about Sebby and if I liked him and then everyone was asking me about him because me and Sebby have really started getting along recently and even though I haven;t told him (or anyone for that matter) about the "big issue" I'm having he still manages to make me feel better and yeah.. he gave me hugs today hahahaa I felt special!

And now Thermo is getting mad at me because he thinks I wanted to go out with Sebby the whole time we were going out which of course I didn;t and I'm not even sure I'd wanna go out with him now, we just get along as friends so yeah, now both he and Nathan are super mad at me, sometimes I think I made a mistake but then I think back to how I felt during the time I was thinking about breaking up with him, it was terrible, I still cared for him but I felt like I was living a lie.. I just don;t know anymore..

well I suppose thats all the venting for today, please let me know about whether you think I should talk about my "issue"..

I might post a picture post soon..
we'll see..


love you all!

Kimmiixox

SMILE!

Heyy,

not much happening, just texting mostly, by the way, if you want to exchange numbers, just let me know =D


Well, not alot happening, I got 2 hugs from Sebby today, I felt loved =D

Cassie seems a bit competitive when it comes to Sebby, like shes the kind of person who hugs anyone, so she walked up to Sebby and gave him a hug and goes:

"I love you, Sebby"

and I just laughed and watched and then Sebby was like,

"hahaa, hey Kim, you want a hug too?"

and Cassie said:

"siince when do you give her hugs?"

and he was like:

"umm.. 5 minutes ago"

and she gave me evil eyes and murmered:

"I hate you"

then walked away.. so yeahh.. I don;t think she was serious though because she was hanging around with me at lunchtime..


this post has almost no point.. oh my gosh I forgot to tell you!!


I have this friend Milly (you know about her) and my good mate Adam got her e-mail address and now after about 3 days they are calling eachother, texting and messaging everyday and Adam won;t stop talking about her and yeahh.. please don;t judge me but I'm kind of jealous, because now all my good as guy friends are starting to like Milly, as in really like her and yeahh.. she suspects I have a crush on Adam which I don;t but she won;t stop saying how cute he is and everything which in my opinion, if I did like him, she might not try to dangle infront of me.. just a guess.. but I don;t know, we'll see//



thats all for now,

lovee youu


Kimmiixox

It's over...

well, it's over, Thermo and I broke up//

nothing much to talk about, I'll post later



love you all,

Kimmiixox

Valentines..

Hey!

how are you awesome people this fine day??

well after last time I posted I had to go to Cassie's birthday party,
not much happened except... DAVEE WAS THERE! nothing too major happened, we just sat around, ate pizza and blue toothed and texted each other... while sitting right next to eachother.. oh the destruction of our technology driven generation... hahahahaa just kidding

but after the party my mum picked me up and came in and talked to Cassie's mum and she saw Dave..

and shes like:

"hes not bad, Kim.. let me guesss.. he dumped you??"

so yeahh.. he gave me a hug goodbye.. but nothing major..


ever since it's been pretty boring..

Thermo and I don;t talk much anymore yet are still going out, I'm working on it but the whole dumping him concept in daunting cause' I've always been the dumpee.. rather then the dumper.. if you know what I mean so yeahh.. the guilt is overwhelming,..

Anyway, up to today, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!

We had our school carnival today so there was no work or anything so that was cool.. just hung out at the local pool and swam a few races..

I got a few Valentines,, I got the cutest teddy bear from Sam (guy on my bus) and he wrote me a poem.. and Adam and Sebby both gave me hugs at swimming and said Happy Valentines day hahahaha I pretty much hung out with Adam and Sebby most of the day cause' they're cool and the girls were driving me nuts, don't get me wrong I still love them but sometimes I think that guys make better friends cause they're really laid back and everything but with girls there always seems to be drama,, just a thought..

It was really fun with Sebby cause I had this long scarf thing and I used it in my hair cause we were dressed in school colors and he stood up on this huge hill and the sun was being him so it looked really cool and he was in a super man pose and I cracked up laughing hahahaha..
if I need to be cheered up, I go to Sebby =D

ohh yeahh and when we were walking out onto the buses to go back to school I saw Dave again, so yeahh..



love you all!! xoxo

Kimmiixox