Dibber Dobbers...

Hey!
Today was a pretty good day, not alot happened, I had choir practice and Mrs. Lander made me sing a soprano part of a song by myself in front of everyone even though I'm alto and can barely reach the notes...that was embarressing! but by a miraculous occurance I reached the notes while the others were listening. Some people might not know what I am talking about, baisically:

Soprano = the really high girl singers
Alto = the lower but not really low girl singers

So that is all that happened really....

Oh! actually something else did happen,
while we were standing in the classroom just before we were about to go home Jade suddenly stood up on her chair while Emily was standing next to her and screamed at the top of her voice:

"EMILY'S SAVING HERSELF FOR RYAN!!"

If there are some people who are totally against sexual comments and everything I apologise deeply but that just proves that what she said was wrong, Ryan is a kid in our class and he isn't that bad but everyone descriminates him so yeah..
I walked up to Emily and asked her if she was okay and then I just walked up to Jade and just said:

"Jade, just leave her alone"

Now I know it's bad to tell on people and it's something only "dibber dobbers" do but Emily, myself and everyone else are just so sick of Jade and Breannas behaviour so we went and talked to Mrs. Lander about it and she asked me when it even started so I ended up going right back to her random texts to me about how she didn't like me anymore and how ever since they have just been against us generally so Mrs. Lander is going to talk to her tomorrow but I can almost promise that Emily and I are going to be given alot of crap (excuse the language) from Jade from telling on her but if it gets rid of the problem I can handle it.

Well that was my uneventful day so I might go comment on some blogs or something now;;


Kimmiixox

The Road To Recovery...

Hey!
Thankyou so much for commenting on my last post, I know two of you did.
I really needed that advise and
I understood where you were coming from and decided that I would do something about it so now, as you may tell from the title, I have decided to move on from David, I won't forget him or stop liking him as a friend but I have just decided to face that our "love reletionship" or whatever you want to call it is over and possibly take a complete 100% break from him temporarily until I am definatly over it.

It is 11:30 pm so my memory is really bad but one of you did ask me other people that I hung out with so I will talk a bit about that,
I hang out with nearly every one I have mentioned in my first or second post or people I have just randomly mentioned , if you can't be bothered finding it I will try to list the names:

Jacqui
Gracie
Sebby
Cassie
Emily
Callum
Fraz
Lexia
Booty
Keera
Josh (the one I almost had detention with, lets call him Josh. S from now on)


There are a few other people that I hang out with that I don't exactly consider "friends" such as Jade and Breanna who talk to me but I have to admit I don't have very nice feelings for them.

Hope thats enough, if you want details or ideas of anything you want me to write write about just let me know,


Kimmiixox



I'm being yelled at by the parents at the moment so I might post later or something for the rest, just wanted to thank you!!!!!

Kimmiixoox

Unwanted Feelings...

Hey!I hate the way feelings can't be controlled, I hate the way things seem to go wrong exactly when you need things to go right,I hate the way people can use you with out having a care in the world, But most of all I hate that even though these things are true, you can still love the person whos doing it to you or causing you to feel that way.I can't stand these feelings, I don't want to like David! things aren't going to change, people tell me they love me like Callum or Booty and I reject them not because I don't like them, but because for an unknown strange mental reason I feel I have to be loyal to David, loyal to the person who has caused me more pain then anyone else. How stupid does that sound? I feel ridiculous just typing it.

Not much happened today, just went over to Gracies and got some stuff ready for school and texted Fraz.

Sorry for depressing post, guys!!

Kimmiixox

The Fair Of Disaster....

Okay, the heading is maybe a little exaggeration but I guess I had better just tell you what happened.

Well, we got to the fair and we all met up,
me, Booty, David, Cassie, Sophie.

Then we went to a small booth thing that some army people had set up and they were using real guns for demonstrations because David and Cassie love stuff about the wars and things like that, you should see them, give them a gun and they could tell what it is in a second. So then we just started walking around and I was just talking to Sophie and I really really hate to say it but...she was pretty nice. I don't want to like her though, I want to hate her for what shes done, I think I sound stupid when I say that but Cassie keeps telling me its reasonable, what do you guys think?
Anyway, this is when I cracked. There is another girl that goes to Davids school named Erin and she is the typical "hot girl" Blonde, blue eyes, super skinny....obviously I was super jealous when he started flirting with her and ditching us to hang out with her, he was throwing little flirty messages and saying flirty things to me all morning but then she came along....I felt so..used.
Do you guys think thats reasonable?
Well then I was texting him last night and he was flirting again! here are some of his messages

David: lol I wuv you Kim
David: lol your the best, Kim....THE BEST!

But then he started asking me what I thought of Erin and saying:

"Could you tell I was flirting with her? :P"

I just felt like saying to him:

"Yes I could tell! you did it right in front of me! the girl who you are apparently "so sorry" for hurting."

But of course I didn't, I just laughed along.

Anyone got any advise for me? I just don't know what to do...


Well I guess I had better reply to my comments!

PF Nelly - Hey! yeah I love feeling like a kid... hahaha you can have a tattoo anyday! yeahh shes being really nice now. Thanks for commenting!

xo LilMizMari xo - Hahaha! I have always wanted to suck helium!! but I have never done it....yet :P Thanks for commenting!

Sammy - Hey! Cassie is definatly acting better even in front of people. We were talking a bit more personal today so I guess it depends on if she wants to talk about something?
Hahaha! your teacher regulations have just cheered me up!! those sound perfect hahah.

Thanks guys..!

Kimmiixox

Comments& Question...

Hey!
This is a response to comments and a little question I have on my mind. If you want to actually read about what happened today and you haven't already just scroll down and read your heart out.

...........COMMENTS.................

PF Nelly - Hey! we don't go to competions..at least not yet. Recently we have been requested to sing somewhere but they haven't told us where yet. Is you friend soprano? if your not sure it doesn't matter. Thanks for reading!!

xo LilMizMari xo - Hey! I will write about the fair tomorrow for ya. Hahaha yeah..thats our Emily. Funny little Bunny...random much?

Sammy - Hey! hahaha no detention yet but I am expecting it soon. Hahaha, whats happening to schools these days? I wonder what the requirements for being a teacher are..? Thanks for commenting!!


Well thats all.... now for a small question

What religious beliefs do you guys have?

No descrimination shall meet you on my part, curiousity has just gotten the better of me.
Please asnwer my question and I will post about the fair tomorrow or Sunday.


Kimmiixox

A Little Kid Again...

Hey!
Don't you love it when you dress up or muck around and you feel like a little kid again and you act stupid just because it's fun and you don't care about other peoples thoughts? I felt like that today.

My parents own a shop, I'd tell you what it is but I don't want any stalkers :P
But anyway my parents asked me if I would set up a booth outside their shop just for the day, so I saw this as an oppurtunity to talk to Cassie and spend some time with her so I called her up and she came and we set up a little table outside the shop and we sold temporary tattoos and put them on little kids, while we were sitting there we just never stopped laughing and we earned about $10.50 from donations, the tattoos themselves were free but people were nice hahaha.
After a while we decided we would close for a bit so we went and sat outside the back of my parents store where there is a huge set of stairs and we just sat there talking with our legs spread over the pathway and every 5 minutes or so people would try to walk over us and give us weird looks...then we moved and let them through and we just cracked up laughing.
So in the end I didn't talk to her, it never seemed like the right time, I feel like I've discovered that talking personally isn't the major thing with Cassie and me. We have fun together and thats all that matters, we don't need heart-to-hearts, just eachothers company.

So thats today, tomorrow I am going to the local fair with Cassie and then meeting up with Booty, Sophie, David and another one of my mates Fraz. Of course I'm excited/nervous about seeing David but please don't blame me for feeling like it might be awkward with Sophie there but she has just as much right as me to be there since she is Bootys girlfriend so I will live, Cassie promised that if it was terrible we could just go hang out together without them.
So I'll post about that tomorrow night or maybe Sunday.

Just about to watch a movie so I will respond to comments later or something


Kimmiixox

Some Things Shouldn't Be Seen...

Hey!!
Sorry for the lacking in posts, the mood just wasn't there, but now it is! so prepare for a post.

Yesterday was choir practice, yes I joined a choir. For those few people who say "Choirs are so gay!" and yes that is a quote from people in my class, in my defence it was either choir or a 1,5oo word assignment with an oral presentation and a model we had to make. I'm sorry I would rather choir.
During choir our teacher lets call her...Mrs. Lander. Well she was doing hand signals to tell us when to sing and stuff like that but her shirt was really tight, so whenever she lifted her arms her shirt would go up and show ALOT of her stomach and then when she put her arms down the shirt would stay up. Also whenever she lifted her arms she had huge dark sweat stains on her armpits....now I'm not one of those people who try to be mean and everything but "ew.." I actually like her as a teacher as much as a kid can like teachers.

Well overall this isn't a very interesting post but there are a few things that might be coming up.

There is the local show/fair on all long weekend so that should be fun..I still don;t know who I am going with.
Some of you might know of a band called Kisschasy, well I might be going with Emily to see them live so that should be fun.
Just a little story I will share with you about Kisschasy, during history we were split into groups for a quiz, our group was Gracie, Emily and me. Considering Emily is obsessed with them she insisted we call our group Kisschasy and so we told the teacher and she wrote "Kchasey" on the board and when Emily asked her why she wouldn;t write "Kisschasy" the history teacher says

"I'm sorry, Emily. It sounds like your trying to invite a game when you say that and it is very inappropriate"

Not funny? Emily thought it was hahaha.


WEll I guess its time for......Comments!!!.......

live-laugh-love-sing xx - hahaha he is horrible. No, I don't know who threw the stone and everyone I have asked has no clue either. Hahaha I doubt Josh likes me!!

PF Nelly - No, no one I know knows who threw the rock, hahaha no I wasn't showing off, or was I? Nah I wasn't.

xo LilMizMari xo - hahaha, wow you've had some bad teachers! Thats okay, comment whenever you like..

Sammy - Hmm...interesting lol. I agree, huge overreaction on his part. Yes..he may have killed me, but I'm brave :P Just Joking! Wow...I didn't know I write my blog a different way to anybody else? But thanks for reading!!

Christizle yo' - Hmm...veryy interesting. Hahaha, Josh has been talking to me heaps lately..suspicious much? Thanks for the advise!

Thanks for reading!!


Kimmiixox.

Teachers& Their Annoying Ways...

Hey!
Well recently I have become a rebel *gasp* shocking I know! I haven't really, I am actually getting blamed for something I never even did...I suppose I should tell you about it...

Well, we were in PE and we were playing baseball. I'll call him Mr. Philly well he is one of my least favourite teachers and hes kind of a show off so he was batting and doing a pretty bad job of it. Meanwhile Emily and I were sitting behind some nets that separate us from the oval when suddenly Mr. Philly turns around holding a small stone in his hand and screams

"Who threw the stone at me?!"

and none of us replied so he got even more angry his scream got louder

"Who did it?!"

one of us said anything again, his face went really red and he suddenly looked at Emily and I and around 6 other people and suddenly said

"Okay, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you go back to the classroom now! I'll talk to you in a minute" So..

Me
Josh (not the Josh I mentioned before)
Sebby
Emily
Keera
Jonty
Belinda

Grace (not the same person as Gracie)

walked back to the classroom and just sat around and talked for about half an hour until Mr. Philly came back to the classroom, he got us to sit at our desks and took a deep breath then said

"okay, now will you tell me who threw the stone? I know it was one of you 8!"

when none of us said anything his calm face faded and he started screaming at the top of his voice

"Fine Then!! Detention for all of you until one of you admits to it!"

when he was gone I offered to admit to it even though I didn't do it so we didn't have to get detention but Josh was suddenly being nice to me, he usually doesn't talk to me but when I offered he walked over to me and patted me on the shoulder and said

"Nah, don't worry about it, it's just detention, don't say you did if you didn't"

and smiled and walked away.
I was majorly shocked, where was this coming from?
Any ideas, let me know.

okay Time for: ............COMMENTS.................

Christizle yo' - I'm still trying to get up the courage to talk to Cassie again since I got shut down the first time but I will definatly talk to her. I totally know how you feel about the second best thing, I feel like that alot. I thought it was stupid about their names as well, aww...thankyou for saying I'm awesome, I don't hear that alot hahaha Thankyou!

Sammy - Thanks for commenting, really? you'll read my blog? I feel special now haha, Thankyou heaps!

xo LilMizMari xo - Wow! thankyou so much for all of your advise! I did what you said about Lexia and it totally worked, we are friends now but I'm still kind of jealous of her. I will have to try your advise on Cassie the problem is I'm stilling gaining the courage to do it but I promise I will do it! and Thanks for saying I'm terrific! You helped loads so Thankyou!!!

PF Nelly - Hahaha, thanks! I get told I use words in a strange way so I guess this is the result!
Wow...you are the first person to use my advise against me, congrats hahaha. I have talked to Lexia and she has forgiven me, thanks for all your advise!


Well that's all really, comments and advise of any sort would be loved and greatly appreciated.


Kimmiixox

Back To Haunt Me...

Hey..
Today is my day of minature and meaningless depressions..
Just an ordinary Saturday afternoon, surfing the net and talking to friends.
But this one old problem keeps haunting me and coming and going as if testing my emotions.
It's the Cassie problem..
It's as if the conversation and the promise to talk more personally never occured.


I can't help but think it's only her, I know its mean and I'm probably part of the problem but every time I try to talk to her personally she replys with a meaningless answer and changes the subject. I even came to the stage where I asked her about it but she simply said:

"What are you talking about?"



And being the kind of person I am I backed out. I just said

"Nevermind"


I'm not sure whats going on between us anymore.


Also:

There is a girl in our class called Lexia.
Recently there was a fight between me, Emily, Cassie, Lexia and Matt (Matt = Emily's boyfriend)

The thing is..Lexia doesn't approve of Matt and Emily and thinks they shouldn't like eachother so when they decided to date, they made Cassie and I promise not to tell Lexia. We thought it wouldn't be a big deal and that aslong as Lexia didn't ask about it we would never have to lie about it but just so something could go wrong, she asked us straight up if they were going out. I looked at Cassie who was standing next to me to see what she would say and she said:

"No way!"

Then Lexia looked at me, I didn't know what to say. So I lied too.
Then recently Lexia found out about Matt and Emily and how we had lied and got really mad and said that she could never trusts us again and all her friends had abbandoned her.
But only one day later, Cassies MSN name changed..it now says:

Cassie LOVES Lexia!!

But thats not all, Lexias name now says:

Lexia LOVES Cassie!!

And as stupid as it sounds, I got jealous. I mean, just yesterday they hated eachother and now they are best friends. But Cassie and I have never had a fight but she chooses to ignore me and I know its stupid but I can't help it.

I am expecting discrimination but it's how I feel...I keep having feelings like "What is wrong with me?"
I'm starting to discover that in most peoples eyes..I'm second best. I'm not saying that we hvae to be put in order from most important or anything its just that I think we shoud be equal but I never feel like that anymore. its like I have to impress them to earn their approval all the time or something.

Any ideas, advice or feedback would be highly appreciated even if your just commented to say I'm paranoid.

Kimmiixox

Keeping it Real...

Hey!
So not much happened today...but if anything happens or I suddenly remember something that happened today that miraculously you guys might find interesting I will post it later on tonight.

Right now I have a few things on my mind..

1. Something Sam said on one of her posts.
2. A comment left on Rachels blog before she left.

I really hope these people don't mind me quoting them, talking about them etc..

I guess I had better explain.
First I'll start with the comment on Rachels blog:
Well some of you might have seen it but some of you might not, right before she left she was getting some hatemail and one of the comments was posted by an anoymous commentor who said something along the lines of:

"There is no need to lie on a blog"

And I believe that 110%. Also something Sam mentioned, she was talkinng about how when she writes her problems in her blogs, the problems seem to fade and I have realised as I have started to write things about Callum and David in this blog things haven't fixed themselves but I feel heaps better about it.

So this blog is going to become a bit more indepth, not much is going to change,I will still write about my life, guy problems etc.. but I will talk about them with more of my thoughts and things like that so I can really get them out there, if you know what I mean.

Some of you might think I am talking all mushy or crap (excuse the language) but I just think that I will do this, not really for everyone else, but for me...I apologise for any selfishness you may sense in that statement but I promise I am not trying to show a selfish side of me, just the real me..

Sorry if you think this change is a bad idea but like I said..I'm doing it for me..


Kimmiixox

NOTICE: I thought I would ask a question to the people that comment here as well..

"How many times is appropriate to break up then get back together?"

If you coud answer that, thanks so much

What To Do...

Hey!

So you guys were asking what I said to Callum, well here it is:

Callum: I love you...will you go out with me?
Kim: Callum..I think it's nice that you like me but I only see you as a friend, nothing more. Going out with you would be like dating my brother... except less discusting then my real brother.
Callum: Oh...I understand..
Kim: Please don;t be mad at me!! I just don;t want to lose you as a friend
Callum: It's okay...I have to go.. I love you, Kim... xoxox
Callum has signed off.

I'm sorry if you think thats mean...but I just said what I felt.
Do you think I did the right thing?


Kimmiixox

Here We Go Again...

Hey..
Guess what just happeneed..
I was just talking to Callum over MSN like usual and suddenly he goes

"I Love You, Kim"

And we are good mates so I didn't know if it was a friend thing or not so I just asked him:

"In what way?"

And he said:

"I really love you, like truly"


I couldn't believe it...first Booty now Callum. My luck with guys is going down the tubes.
All my friends want me and the ones I like never like me.
I'm not full of my self I promise, I don't know why they like me and don't expect me to they just always seem to.
I'm sorry about this post guys, I just thought I'd tell you.


Kimmiixox

My Impressive Tennis Skills...

Hey,
sorry for not posting yesterday. I am home sick from school today so I feel like crap..so since nothing is happening today, I will tell you about yesterday.

Yesterday our school had a sports day. Baisically everyone had to choose a sport and we would go and play round robins of that game for the whole day. I chose tennis.
Now I am a sporty person but I have to admit I suck at tennis, but I thought it would be fun to play it anyway and plus Gracie was doing it as well. Before we even began everyone was having random hits on the courts and they were really good! Me and Gracie ended up making a pledge that whenever we made a mistake we would burst out laughing and not worry about it...we laughed alot that day.

But anyway, at one stage this girl walked past me and Gracie on our way to one of our games and she stared at me for a bit then screamed "OH MY GOSH! Your Kim! you went out with Dave!!! HAHAHA" then she turned to her friend and then her friend said "Your Kim?! I have never met you before but David and Callum say your really nice!!" I was so shocked..all I could think of to say was "uhh..thanks?"

All through the day they kept telling all their friends that it was me and screaming things like "Kimmi winkle!!" while I was playing my games. I couldn't help but laugh! It was weird though.


I got majorly sunburnt and me and Gracie won 2 out of 7 games...we didn't go so well but we had fun.


Now it's time for comments!

Christizle yo' - Hey! yeah I love sport..I'm good at some I suppose but I only do it for the fun really. Hahaha I love doing that to Emily, she reacts to it heaps.

xo LilMizMari xo - Hey! yeah, me and Jacqui write songs like that alot. We plan to be rich and famous and sing them all over the world...or maybe not? Thanks for the comment!

live-laugh-love-sing xx - Hey! yeah I still like David heaps. I got teased today abit today! It was funny though, I didn't worry about it much.


Thanks for the comments guys! I realise the pain you mjst go through to read all the way through my posts.


Kimmiixox

Catching up...

Hey,
This is my second post of the day so if you scroll down you can read about my day.
For right now I have some comments to answer to and some other stuff I'm meant to say..

Comments!!:
xo LilMizMari xo - Hey! I'm so sorry about missing your comments, I didn't realise. Thankyou for your advise on everything! I really appreciate it. Yeah, guys can be soo annoying sometimes, but they can be cool to.
Christizle yo' - Thanks for all your comments! Yeahh I hate getting dumped for other people...it makes ya feel like someones better then you, even when its true it sucks to hear it. *Smiles big* I'm smiling I'm Happy!
live-laugh-love-sing xx - I promise I will write about the pranks eventually, I'll keep them for a boring day when theres nothing else to talk about. Don't worry about Lucy. In the end you have the guy, not her so don't stress. Yeah, guys can be so annoying! :D


Okay, I need to introduce some people as well:

Emily: This girl is awsome, she means the world to me and makes everyday more interesting so I'm never bored! She is dating a guy who I don't exactly like but I'm happy for her all the same :D she is a sporty girl and we always play basketball or soccer together and have the best fun ever.

Callum: This guy lives right across the road from Cassie and David so they are all good friends. He was one of the reasons me and David broke up but he is so sorry for it so I've forgiven him. Hes such a good friend and can always make you smile, we can talk for hours about anything.

Bethany: This girl is pretty cool, not my best friend or anything but shes fun. She likes Josh as well and loves to brag about him alot so I'm happy for her and him that they like eachother and everything.

I think thats all so yeah. Scroll down to read about my day today.


Kimmiixox

Strange Day&Fun Day...

Hey!
Today was a good day except it was a bit strange..
I have come to the conclusion that I am destined to be singe for a veryyyy long time.
Today I made my first attempt at moving on..and I am a bit weird so I turned to a little crush I have. Heres a mini intro on the guy:

Josh: This guy is soo sweet. Hes in year 8 so hes one year older then me and hes pretty cute. Me and him only know eachother through my brother so we don't talk much so thats why I guess it only stayed a crush.
Crush meaning: a little bit of feeling but nothing big....like I feel for David (Sorry...I have to try and focus on good stuff!)

But my luck turned bad once again...
You see, there is another girl in year 8 called Bethany who also likes Josh. I am good friends with her but we aren't really really close. Anyway.. today after I decided I would forget David for Josh she came up to me and told me that he asked her out. So my mood was crushed but then again..it probably wouldn't have worked out anyway.

So thats the strange part, now the fun part...

I might not have mentioned this but I LOVE sport and one of my best friends Emily is a major soccer fan so me and her were playing one on one allll afternoon at school, but then we stopped and Jacqui and Grace sat with us and we started teasing Emily (nicely of course) about her new boyfriend.
Then after school I caught the bus home with Jacqui and on the way to the 2nd bus stop we wrote a song about Fish and Chips which was soo much fun. Then Gracie came to my 2nd bus stop and told me that I could go over to her house. So we went and played tennis on her court for about an hour and then we had a huge water fight and I got sooo wet I was making puddles when I walked.
I only just got home so I'm still pretty wet but it was hot today so I'm okay.

Bootys good..
Davids good I guess...


Thats all I can think of now but I know I have to answer a few comments I missed and introduce some more people properly so I'll do that as well...


Kimmiixox

Recovery&Party...

Hey!
Sorry about the last post, everything just came over me in a heap and I just couldn't handle it. But tonight at 8:30 Gracie came over so she cheered me up, we ate cake and drank about 5 glasses of coke so we were really hyper. In the end forgetting about it for a while made me realise that not everything is going bad so I'm in a better mood now but..unfortunatly......I still love David and he still doesn't like me, but at least I know I have my friends. I didn't hear any news about the sleep over so theres not really much to report on. Me and Gracie were playing pranks on MSN so I might tell you about those but for right now it's pretty late so I'll answer a few comments and go to bed.

Comments...
PF Nelly: They don't let Cassie have sleepovers with guys, they let her have them with David. The difference is, though I'm suspicious, no one else is so the thought of Cassie and David getting into any mischief is almost unthinkable to them.

Christizle yo': Yeah he dumped me a while ago, I mentioned it in one of my other posts quite a while back. His reason was he loved another girl who is evidently emo. Thanks for being so nice about people being crazy to dump me I'm not sure its true but it's really nice to hear it.


Well thats all...



Kimmiixox

Crazyyyyyy...

Hey,
This is going to be a very depressing and boring post so if you don't want to hear it, don't read it.

I am officially going nuts, I can't seem to handle it. The fact that everyone tells me he likes me and I get my hopes up and then it all comes crubling down over and over again is making me go crazy! I feel like I hate him even though I know I don't, I can't help but think that hes ruined everything and its his fault but yet his happy. He says I'm the best person ever and anyone would be nuts to dump me but hes the one that dumped me!
It's not like I'm going to turn suicidal or any other stupid things people do when this kind of stuff happens. Deep down I know I will get over it, I am only 13, theres someone else for me blah, blah blah but right now, I just hate it..


Kimmiixox

Random Stuff&How Many Readers?

Hey!
Not much happened today,
I went to school and had to take a year 8 level maths test even though I'm in year 7. The thing is at the end of year 6 our teachers gave us a HUGE maths test, I'm talking 10 pages doublsided with size 12 font. Anyway it was meant to decide whether we were going to be in a year 8 class or year 7 class and I got into the year 8 level, don't ask me why though. Todays test was pretty easy though. I haven;t talked to David for awhile so theres not much to talk about there except that apparently hes going over to Cassies for a sleep over tonight (they do it all the time) so something interesting might happen to write about.
I just started thinking.....Cassie and David have been friends since they were like 2 or something aand they have always lived next door to eachother but they both say that they have never thought as eachother as more then friends. Now I might just be strange but there are always htose perfect stories that have the guy next door and the girl fall in love etc... if I lived next to a guy I was friends with like that, I would probably at least think about what it would be like if we got together, I might not do something about it but I would have thought of it. I just thought of that randomly so I hope I don't get hate-mail on that.

Also I was just wondering, I really want to know just how many people are reading my blog so for everyone who reads my blog can you please comment on this post even if you never comment again so I can find out who reads this blog.
Thanks!

Kimmiixox

School Sucks...

Hey!
Today I had school again and it was worse then usual, not for any particular reason I just felt different today.
Things with David...Well I have been talking to some of his friends and they don;t really know that I like him, they think I do abit but they don't acually know. So anyway they keep telling me that "He always talks about me" and "he doesn't talk about girls except me". I want to think that means he likes me but he still might not. They also said he described me as:

-beautiful
-great personality
-funny
-easy to talk to

What to you guys think I should do? Let me know.

By the way, Booty is talking less about Sophie and we are getting back to how we were! :D


Kimmiixox

And The Week Goes On...

Hey,
Well school is back so I might post less often but I will try to post daily,
Today I just went to school and the only interesting thing that happened was this:
There is a girl Jade in our class and she used to be my best friend but then suddenly one day I got a random text from her saying:

" Geez Kim! You didn't have to treat me like a bitch!! whatever I don't care anymore, Breannas better then you, at least shes not a boring bitch slut"

And I swear I didn't do anything out of the ordinary or anything I thought was wrong.
Breanna is one of the most popular girls in the class but also one of the meanest and most flirty.
Anyway today we had to randomly pick from a hat who we would sit next to during classes and of course considering my bad luck I was put next to Tegan and as she came to sit next to me she was acting like my best friend being nice but fake at the same time. I hate people who pretend to be things their not or act happy when they aren't, I prefer people to be sad if their sad or treat you like they hate you after they say they hate you rather then pretending nothing is wrong.

That is pretty much all that happened today.

Oh yeah!
Booty is talking to me again but its only getting worse, our conversations are awkward and all he talks about is Sophie and how pretty and amazing she is, now I'm not saying I'm not happy for him or anything but listening to my friend talk about the girl my ex boyfriend dumped me for isn't my idea of a great time.

Over all a pretty boring post, thankyou for reading my useless writing!

Kimmiixox

Booty&Some Other Stuff...

Hey,
First topic, Booty.
Booty is one of Davids friends, so baisically we met over the internet which sounds worse then it really is, its not like hes a stalker or anything since Cassie, David and Callum are friends with him. Booty was nice to me straight away which sounds lame but as some of you have might have noticed, I tend to lower myself down. For example, if someone asks me if I think I'm pretty? I say no right away because I honestly don't think I am but it has come to my attention that other people seem to think I am but I always put it off as something they have to say because they are my friends. So casually in conversation over IM he was being really nice, but something about him didn't make him the kind of friend to lie about something like that since we had only just met...but he was already saying things like "I don't understand why you think you aren't pretty, I don;t care what you look like, your a legend in my eyes and anyone who says different is wrong" Now I know it sounds weird or possibly flirty but it really had an effect on me, it made me feel better about myself. So we were really good friends and then it came crumbling down with just a few words

"Will you go out with me?"

As soon as Booty said those words I was instantly shocked, he knew that I still cared about David and I had never met him before either so I said:

"Sorry no, we only just met. Maybe when I get to know you better"

After that he signed off, but then he came back and said sorry for everything and said it didn't matter because he loved someone else now who just happened to be one of my best friends, Emily. All he could talk about was Emily:

Booty- "Did you know her favourite colour is pink!?"
Me- "Yeahh, Booty. Shes like my best friend"
Booty- "Ohh, well did you know..."

And our conversations were never the same again.
After Emily rejected him Booty went nuts and was really sad. But then as I have mentioned before he asked Sophie out as a joke but when he told me he was going out with her, I didn't know it was a joke, so I wanted to be a good friend so I said

"cool! I'm happy for you, just don't get hurt"

I think he took it the wrong way because he signed off and never came back on, I haven't heard from him since. I sent him an e-mail asking him how he is and everything and I haven't gotten a reply so maybe he hates me. I really miss him like crazy but theres nothing I can do, like always I ruined it.
So thats Booty!

On another note,
You suggested I ask Cassie to ask David for me.
The thing is, Cassie is confusing me.
We opened up to eachother and promised we would never go back to how we were, but she did. It's as if nothing has changed, shes back to ignoring me when I talk to her and she acts weird around me. So now I don't know if I can open up to her or ask her to do something for me without feeling awkward. Please give me some feedback on this because life is really testing me now.

Kimmiixox

Help Me...

Hey,
2nd post of the day, sorry readers. This is just really eaten me up, not literally obviously but emotionally.
I haven't gotten up the courage to talk to David about it yet. In fact I'm starting to wonder if he even likes me or if this is just a game for him. Should I ask him if he likes me? and if you think I should how should I go about it? I don't want to seem desperate or anything. Sorry people,
I just really don't want to screw this up. Any possibilities of a reletionship for us is very unlikely so if I want this I can't make a mistake, I have to do what I can.

please still comment on my other post.
I know I promised I would write about Booty but I am not in the mood right now so I will do it maybe tomorrow.
Please give me some useful feedback.

Kimmiixox

Sophie, the Great Almighty S**T...

Hey,
Thankyou so much for your thoughts about David, I will definatly consider talking to him about it, though I am kind of nervous about those things its definatly worth a try.
Now PF (Passionflower) asked about Sophie, this is the stuff about her. Excuse the language but the one word I would have to use to describe her is slut. I myself have never met her but I always like to think theres good in everyone, I've heard shes a nice person etc... but Cassie, David and I still consider her a slut. It may seem mean but she can't stay single for an hour, for example:

She dumped David
less then an hour later
She was going out with Callum, Davids best friend
after around 12 hours later
She dumped Callum
less then an hour later
Another one of Davids friends Booty asked her out as a joke and she said yes

So I'm kind of mad at her for hurting David and Booty and Callum cause' they are some of my really good friends. But theres also that little bit of jealousy that occurrs when your boyfriend dumps you for someone else.

So thats Sophie, hoped you enjoyed.

I will tell you more about Booty next post because I haven't told you about him.

Kimmiixox

I Hate Flirting...

Not much is happening,
Tonight I was talking to David on MSN and he was flirting like he always does, here are some examples:

Convo 1:
David: Hey Gorgeous!
Me: Hahaha Hi

Convo 2:

Me: I'll be right back
David: Okay
*when I got back*
Me: Back!
David: hahaha GOOD!! I was starting to really miss you.

Stuff like that. I really hate the way that people can flirt all the time but most of the time, flirting is fake, just harmless fun. It doesn't always mean they like you, but just to make it even more confusing, sometimes it does. I suppose I don't really hate flirting itself, its really the confusion that it creates.
Please comment me and let me know if I am being strange about this, or if you think theres something more too it.

Kimmiixox

Getting It Straight...

Hey,
I guess I didn't do such a great job of explaining, the truth sounds really bad and confusing. This si what happened:

We went out
he dumped me because we lived to far apart.
I still liked him
He liked me
We went out

Then a girl named Sophie talked to Callum, Davids friend, and said "I like Dave, Can you break him and his girlfriend up?" in that sentence his girlfriend is me.

Then he dumped me for Sophie
Sophie dumped him for his best friend
He is single
I still like him
I have no idea how he feels

I am fusterated he dumped me so much, it almost makes sure that we can't get back together. How would I ever trust him not to dump me again? Who knows theres not another girl who he will fall in love with? But I like him.
Don't ask me why I like him, I just do. It's a feeling...not something I can control. I would love to just ignore it but its a really big feeling. Some people might know what I am talking about, others may not.

Kimmiixox

Late Posting...

Sorry for not posting yesterday like I promised,
I actually ended up sleeping over at Cassies which I mentioned is right next door to David.
Not much happened, we watched part of "The Ring Two" but then switched over to a movie called "Saving Private Ryan" which is mostly lots of war scenes and a pretty good story so if your interested in that kind of thing and don't mind the sight of blood and guts, watch it cause' its good.
But today something did happen, David texted Cassie inviting us to go for a walk with him so since she knew I liked him she automatically said yes and the whole walk she was trying to push us together, like occasionally pushing me towards him so I'd fall on him etc... Then we went to David’s house and just hung out with him and his cousin Josh who I had met before when me and one of my friends ran into David and Josh surfing one day.
Both Cassie and Josh were making jokes saying random things like "David loves ERIN!!" If you are wondering Erin goes to David’s school, but I don't and almost every boy likes her because she is ,unfortunately for me, gorgeous. But Cassie must have caught the sad look on my face and said "No he doesn't! He loves Kim!!!" I blushed bright red like I always do and he gave me a shy look and smiled, he has one of those smiles that lights up a whole room and you just can't help but smile back. When me and Cassie had to leave Cassie became match maker again and goes up to David and screams "Hugs!" which she always does because she and David have been good friends since they were kids so they hug all the time but then Cassie goes "Dave, hug Kim as well!!" so he turns around and smiles again and gave me a hug. But that wasn't enough for Cassie, she then says "Dave! Just kiss her already" and I just blushed madly and me and Cassie left without any kisses occurring. But that’s not the end, on our way back to Cassies, she got a text from David that said:

"tell Kim I love her xoxo"

And then when we went on MSN later on he IM'd us and said:

David: Is Kim still there?
Cassie: Yesss
David: oh cool! Say Hi to her for me
David: Hi Kim! xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

So that’s all that happened. I need your help though, I feel like hes giving me mixed messages, if you know what I mean. One minute he seems to like me, the next he doesn’t.
What do you think??
Either let me know in a comment and tell me why you think that or vote in a poll that I will create.
By The Way: Thankyou Leesha, but I really am not a very good writer. I’m using this blog to try and get better, there’s no way I’d be a very good Author with writing like mine now!

Kimmiixox

Just Another Day...

Hey,
Sorry for the suspense Leesha! nothing happened today to do with David but I promise to let you know as soon as it does.
Me and Cassie thought it would be cool to catch up so we are going to see the gorgeous talents of a cooking rat....in other words we are going to go see Ratatouille at the cinemas, I utterly failed to make it sound interesting in a different way the first time, I'm sorry for my continuously weird and bad writing. Theres something interesting about tomorrow, the thing is that Cassie and Jake used to go out but they aren't anymore and Jake hasn't seen what Cassie looks like because Cassie has really low self-esteem even though she is beautiful inside and out. After this she is really worried about running into the boys tomorrow because they are going to the movies as well but they are going to a different movie so she is scared he will judge her by how she looks.
Thats all for now! I will post tomorrow about the movie and if anything happens with David.

Kimmiixox

Friend Problems Resolved...

Hey,
Well something interesting happened so I thought I would post and I am seriously suprised at the way this turned out so please don't think I am making this up or anything,
I was messaging my friend Cassie I told you about in my introduction post and told you about how shes popular and I'm not, well suddenly tonight we started talking about David who I also mentioned previously, the truth is David is Cassies next door neighbour, so she was telling me about how she was talkinng to him and everything and she said that he told her that he regrets dumping me for the girl he did because apparently all along he was thinking that he didn't love his new girlfriend but that he still loved me and that I was perfect, which is of course not true but I thought it was a sweet thing to say. I started pouring out my feelings to Cassie and it was really great, after that we got into a conversation about why we stopped talking to eachother properly, like real indepth talking, we both didn't know so now I feel closer to her then ever and couldn't be happier, we spoke for so long that we started at 9.00PM and I am writing this straight after she signed off and it is 3.54AM, I don't usually stay up this late but I am going to bed now and I will sleep in and get a proper ammount of rest so it doesn't really matter.


Kimmiixox

1st Post, Though Technically 2nd...

Hey,
I would like to first say thankyou to Leesha for being my first and only commentor on my blog, I seriously believed that I would get no comments on my first post so thankyou alot.

Unfortuantly it is holidays, of course I love holidays, its a time where you don't have to wake up early or go to bed at 7.00PM but to be 100% honest with you my holidays don't usually contain brilliant and exciting writing material so please excuse at least part of the bore you recieve from my posts written during the holidays.

What I can talk about is my brother has a friend staying down for the week, his name is Jake and he is my ex boyfriend from about year 4 of primary school and he keeps flirting with me and calling me gorgeous and hugging me and when I told him to stop flirting he goes "why? scared your going to get attracted to me?" But I am so over him.

I will tell you if anything interesting happens, sometimes I might just write a short post just to let you know I haven't died or anything highly extreme lik that.

Kimmiixox