you gotta live through the storm before you see the sun...

hey,

well I've been in a non-talkative kind of mood lately, kinda down about some stuff..

my first reaction was to write about it, but this feels really personal. I know I can tell you guys anything, since you have never met the people and this is generally the place we go to tell stuff we can;t tell anyone else, right?
but I'm feeling hesitant to tell you about this articular thing, so what do you guys think? should I vent bout it?

I suppose I'll fill the rest of the post with other stuff..


ohh yeah! I went to a girl, Brittney's birthday party and it was seriously fun! it was kind of a pool party/movie thing.. we were dancing to music and mucking around and then we went out to the pool and a girl Elley was daring everyone to strip down to their undies and go for a swim, I cheated =P cause I already had my bathers underneath but it was really fun and the water was FREEZING cause we were swimming at like 6;00pm so yeah..

then later on most people went home but some of us (Lexiaa&Cassie& a girl called Marli& I) stayed for a sleepover and we stayed up til' 2am watching The Ring 2 under a doona on the couch and Marli hates scary movies so every five or so seconds she'd hide her head under the doona and scream and go, "is it over yet!?" and we'd all just crack up laughing so yeahh,

Then we stayed up until 3 just talking about stuff and Lexiaa was asking me about Sebby and if I liked him and then everyone was asking me about him because me and Sebby have really started getting along recently and even though I haven;t told him (or anyone for that matter) about the "big issue" I'm having he still manages to make me feel better and yeah.. he gave me hugs today hahahaa I felt special!

And now Thermo is getting mad at me because he thinks I wanted to go out with Sebby the whole time we were going out which of course I didn;t and I'm not even sure I'd wanna go out with him now, we just get along as friends so yeah, now both he and Nathan are super mad at me, sometimes I think I made a mistake but then I think back to how I felt during the time I was thinking about breaking up with him, it was terrible, I still cared for him but I felt like I was living a lie.. I just don;t know anymore..

well I suppose thats all the venting for today, please let me know about whether you think I should talk about my "issue"..

I might post a picture post soon..
we'll see..


love you all!

Kimmiixox

SMILE!

Heyy,

not much happening, just texting mostly, by the way, if you want to exchange numbers, just let me know =D


Well, not alot happening, I got 2 hugs from Sebby today, I felt loved =D

Cassie seems a bit competitive when it comes to Sebby, like shes the kind of person who hugs anyone, so she walked up to Sebby and gave him a hug and goes:

"I love you, Sebby"

and I just laughed and watched and then Sebby was like,

"hahaa, hey Kim, you want a hug too?"

and Cassie said:

"siince when do you give her hugs?"

and he was like:

"umm.. 5 minutes ago"

and she gave me evil eyes and murmered:

"I hate you"

then walked away.. so yeahh.. I don;t think she was serious though because she was hanging around with me at lunchtime..


this post has almost no point.. oh my gosh I forgot to tell you!!


I have this friend Milly (you know about her) and my good mate Adam got her e-mail address and now after about 3 days they are calling eachother, texting and messaging everyday and Adam won;t stop talking about her and yeahh.. please don;t judge me but I'm kind of jealous, because now all my good as guy friends are starting to like Milly, as in really like her and yeahh.. she suspects I have a crush on Adam which I don;t but she won;t stop saying how cute he is and everything which in my opinion, if I did like him, she might not try to dangle infront of me.. just a guess.. but I don;t know, we'll see//



thats all for now,

lovee youu


Kimmiixox

It's over...

well, it's over, Thermo and I broke up//

nothing much to talk about, I'll post later



love you all,

Kimmiixox

Valentines..

Hey!

how are you awesome people this fine day??

well after last time I posted I had to go to Cassie's birthday party,
not much happened except... DAVEE WAS THERE! nothing too major happened, we just sat around, ate pizza and blue toothed and texted each other... while sitting right next to eachother.. oh the destruction of our technology driven generation... hahahahaa just kidding

but after the party my mum picked me up and came in and talked to Cassie's mum and she saw Dave..

and shes like:

"hes not bad, Kim.. let me guesss.. he dumped you??"

so yeahh.. he gave me a hug goodbye.. but nothing major..


ever since it's been pretty boring..

Thermo and I don;t talk much anymore yet are still going out, I'm working on it but the whole dumping him concept in daunting cause' I've always been the dumpee.. rather then the dumper.. if you know what I mean so yeahh.. the guilt is overwhelming,..

Anyway, up to today, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!

We had our school carnival today so there was no work or anything so that was cool.. just hung out at the local pool and swam a few races..

I got a few Valentines,, I got the cutest teddy bear from Sam (guy on my bus) and he wrote me a poem.. and Adam and Sebby both gave me hugs at swimming and said Happy Valentines day hahahaha I pretty much hung out with Adam and Sebby most of the day cause' they're cool and the girls were driving me nuts, don't get me wrong I still love them but sometimes I think that guys make better friends cause they're really laid back and everything but with girls there always seems to be drama,, just a thought..

It was really fun with Sebby cause I had this long scarf thing and I used it in my hair cause we were dressed in school colors and he stood up on this huge hill and the sun was being him so it looked really cool and he was in a super man pose and I cracked up laughing hahahaha..
if I need to be cheered up, I go to Sebby =D

ohh yeahh and when we were walking out onto the buses to go back to school I saw Dave again, so yeahh..



love you all!! xoxo

Kimmiixox

What an unfaithful blogger am I...

heyy all!

I'm so so so sorry!!! time for a long post, no?


So updates umm... I am definately considering breaking up with Thermo.. things just aren't working anymore if you know what I mean, hes a bit clingy as well, I know it sounds so mean and I hate saying it but it just doesn't feel right anymore and I figure if I'm not hapy, whats the point? so yeahh.. guess we didn;t end up being the forever and ever couple people thought we would be..

well since this is meant to be a long post I'll tell you something he did..

I think it was just this week or so that I was at the desk of our classes new homeroom teacher and I was getting help for maths and he came up behind me and hugged me, usually I think it's sweet but this was with a teacher watching.. not to mention a really weird teacher and yeahh.. I told him to stop and he didn't.. the teacher wouldn't let me forget it..
so yeahh...


umm... what else. Cassies birthday today!!! hahahaa so it's her party tonight and coincidently I am sick.. which sucks but I'm still going so it's all good..

Also I think Daves going and everytime I see him it always makes me remember old times and stufff... I hate it hahahaa

also theres 2 songs that I like and listen to that constantly remind me of him:

Pillar - Frontline (his fav song)
Lifehouse - you and me (the song that was playing when I first met him)

so yeahh.. tha's going to be interesting...


I saw the movie "Clover fields" and loved it!!! also the other day I watched this movie called "stay alive" I like it, it's not so much scary as it is creepy and interesting so yeahh, love it!

I'm really tired and sick right now so I'm not fun what-so-ever and I'm talking to Thermo but I can't bring myself to break up with him so yeahh...


umm.... what else.. last night I went to Gracies house and we did some stuff for this assignment at school where we plan a 5 day trip to Paris, like where we go, sightseeing where we stay and everything and we made this dancing video to Jacquis fav song and I'm going to show it to her on the bus so that will be fun..

if you have any ideas of stuff to do in Paris let me know hahahhaa

I'm gunna put some lyrics on this post..

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Lifehouse - you and me

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me
and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive...
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I'm so emotional today!! hahahaa I'm crying over that song.. I just love it and the momories..



lovee you all!!

Kimmiixox