So Sorry...

Hey!
I'm back again, I get my laptop back tonight so I will post more but for now I need to finnish my other post...where was I? oh yeahh! Nathan and Thermo.

Well all us three were sitting on the ground at the rock climbing wall and just talking when Thermo dared me to try and beat 3 of my friends, Emily, Jacqui and Gracie who were already halfway up to the top, so I got the gear and I started climbing and I actually bet them ahahaa I felt special. Then when I got off I dared Nathan and Thermo to race each other up the wall which I thought would be funny cause Nathan is kind of a punk-ish computer nerd and Thermo is a full sport addict ahahah but suprisingly they came a draw!

Then I grabbed some free stuff from a store called "The White Elephant" and waited outside with Emily for her mum, then when she came we went to her place and hung out a bit in a small forest out the back of her house, then we went to some guys 40th birthday BBQ and texted Matt who was hanging out with Travis who was Emily's boyfriend until he dumped her today, that big meanie! hahahahaa. Then in the morning we made pancakes for breakfast and Emily was just grabbing the mapel syrup and we hadn;t cooked the mixture yet so randomly she turned around and said:

"Hey, how about we chuck some dye in?"

and I said yes so we ended up having BLUE pancakes hahaha, they were yumm...
Then we were talking to Thermo and we were asking him who he liked and he wouldn't tell us so we were asking him if I left who he tell and if Emily left and he talked to me would he tell. Then I went home and I got on the computer and this is what happened:


-K i m- Nathan&&Thermo..my legend buddyys forevaa&& evaa...xoxo says:
hii!
Thermo_ says:
I like you, I got tired of dragging you and Emily along...
-K i m- Nathan&&Thermo..my legend buddyys forevaa&& evaa...xoxo says:
you..like..me?
Thermo_ says:
yes, I like you..
-K i m- Nathan&&Thermo..my legend buddyys forevaa&& evaa...xoxo says:
like a cursh or...actually like?
Thermo_ says:
I actually don't know.. do you like me? if you don't I don't mind..

This got me thinking....I never thought of Thermo like that but now he mentioned it, butterflies filled my stomach and I couldn't tell what I was feeling... either I liked Thermo or a large bunch of moths had accidentally been thrown down into my stomach...or some other strange occurance has taken place in me...

-K i m- Nathan&&Thermo..my legend buddyys forevaa&& evaa...xoxo says:
I actually don't know...
Thermo_ says:
ohh..well that doesn't matter, friends? *insert hug emotion here*
-K i m- Nathan&&Thermo..my legend buddyys forevaa&& evaa...xoxo says:
suree, friends *insert another hug emotion*

So thats it... today and yesterday nothing has changed at school with Thermo and me, we talk and hang out as usual so I don't think hes upset..but I keep thinking..do I actually love Thermo?
I know I like him, hes one of the best friends I've ever had, even above some of the girls I've been friends with but I think I feel closer to him then he does to me... I'm confused!
I thought I liked Josh, I think I had to admit to myself that I don't think I know what love is and who I'm feeling it towards, I just don't know...

In other less unusual news, I almost fainted in PE yesterday and got sent home early, I texted Rachel in the Sickbay who lives across the road to me to let her know that I wouldn't be on the bus then I came home and slept and thats all...nothing new today at all.


Kimmiixox